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Posted: Wed, 24th Aug 2022 13:35 Post subject: Alcoholism is a bitch |
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I rewrote this post to something less dramatic.
So I am an alcoholic, age 52, and have been since age 17, 35 years of drinking.
My 1st experiences with alcohol at a young age, showed that a I am quite susceptible to the substance. It made me cheerful, and I have never been able to handle it very well. I stuck to beers, can''t handle the strong stuff.
So at age 17, I was frequenting bars in the weekend with bad friends. Later on drinking became regular, until age 28 or so when I started to drink daily at home often, the end of social drinking. I quit my job at age 31, my employer should have fired me way earlier. I became homeless (twice actually), fast forward... 2022 I live in a worn out house on welfare.
So the long term effects on me: My mind has become a sieve. The last few years I often have itching all over my body in the evening or when I go to bed. This actually started during the pandemic, when I was in quarantine from 27 March until 8 October 2020. I have had large amounts of alcohol delivered to my door contactless. Large amounts of beers and sometimes wine. Like tying a cat to bacon. The last few months of quarantine I was chronically bleeding from the duodenum. I am on stomach acid blockers now for the rest of my life. I actually don't know the sustained damage to my liver. The itching could be "primary biliary cholangitis", I just looked it up. Other symptoms, yellow stool, diarrhoea, sick for several days after a week of binge drinking, heavy perspiration, kidneys not working well, etc.
Sunday 14 August this year, I opened my 6th or 7th beer bottle (cheap lager, 5%), and I got a fever of over 39 °C. Especially the abdomen were very warm. I became scared that I was also developing ascites. I still experience vanity, even as fatty as I am these days. Let us skip the story about my teeth.
I quit drinking Saturday 15 August. I drink Radler 0.0% for the time being. The bodily functions have returned to normal. I sleep a lot.
Less dramatic I wrote above. 
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Posted: Wed, 24th Aug 2022 13:59 Post subject: |
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Honestly, good luck men. Hope you can break that dependency.
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Posted: Wed, 24th Aug 2022 15:43 Post subject: |
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Good luck, stay strong and keep drinking that Radler! It's not too late yet, most alcoholics die in their 50s.
My father was alcoholic and it was one of the main factors that ultimately killed him. But he was drinking for over 40 years, upgraded to hard beverages in the end and already had developed that characteristic nose, you aren't at that point yet.
You should use whatever cheap or free resources your nations healthcare and social system provides. Get that liver checked out, then get some medication that helps with withdrawal, or a (voluntary) therapy, or some group thingie. It's such a widespread problem, nearly every western country got extensive infracstructure to support you. And from my experience having something external as well in addition to the will to tackle it definitely helps.
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Posted: Wed, 24th Aug 2022 16:40 Post subject: |
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I had a few problems during lockdown drinking too much and smoking pot.
It is the boredom and loneliness that gets you most.
Worst thing you can do is stay in doors too much, you turn into a hermit.
After lockdown, i am not sure on everyone else but my moods have been so erratic, i have never experienced my moods so bad, i am now 43 years old, getting no younger but life seems to be getting harder and lonelier, old friends you know just aint there no more.
I wish you the best of luck, get an activity and cut your drinking down ten fold.
I work but not lots atm and stook in a job that isn't for me but is giving me money.
I still have a drink but have totally cut it down.
Limit your intake, i have had too.
That lockdown that most have been through has been an absolute head wrecker for most.
It should never be allowed to happen again and tackled in a totally different way.
These politicians that are in power today should be sent to the gallows, that is what would of happened many years ago.
They have destroyed society.
But i wish you the best of luck, have a drink by all means, most love a good drink, me included but sometimes when you want a drink, say no and do something else, you will feel better for it the next day!.
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Posted: Wed, 24th Aug 2022 16:53 Post subject: |
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Only drug i had addiction to was GHB/GBL.. used it daily for a couple of years, sometimes i stopped for a week or so to get a little better effect with less.
When i quit i obviously didn't go cold turkey (did that ever work for anyone?) i took a little less each day for around 1-2 weeks (been 15 years+ so i don't remember) and after that i was off it and i've never used it since.
Alcohol is garbage, good luck.. I know 2 people who drank themselves to death.
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Posted: Wed, 24th Aug 2022 20:18 Post subject: |
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Good luck man. Addiction is hard.
Only thing I've been addicted to is nicotine, and while on the list of things to get addicted to it's pretty mild, I had a hell of a tough time trying to quit my 30+ sticks a day.
It's been years, but every now and then I still get the cravings and it sucks.
If you can get professional help, then please do so because I imagine you're on a much much harder course.
Good luck!
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Posted: Mon, 29th Aug 2022 10:28 Post subject: |
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I personally loves beers and whines, but I mostly drinking 3rd to half when I do drink. I just don't love drinking in large amounts.
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I don't drink much; from 2-3 times/year to every second weekend, depending on if I play with my band or if we're taking a break. I like beer, whisky and wine (but I avoid wine since it gives me such a shitty head ache).
For some reason I've never had that kind of addiction which is somewhat strange since my deceased dad and my dead grandmother (his mother) were both heavy drinkers with a very abusive dad {against my mother, I was just a pre-adolescent witness}. I've got one living and one dead half-sister (the oldest one died earlier this year) and neither of them had any problems with addiction of any sort.
I've had very close friends that were heavily addicted to mainly alcohol (and later hard drugs, from amphetamines to heroin) which ultimately ruined their lives, destroyed relationships with friends, family and girlfriends/spouses, caused illnesses and in a few cases overdoses.
Addiction is a horrible thing that destroys the body and mind as well as everything in the victims life.
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Posted: Mon, 29th Aug 2022 22:57 Post subject: |
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deelix wrote: | vurt wrote: | Only drug i had addiction to was GHB/GBL.. used it daily for a couple of years, sometimes i stopped for a week or so to get a little better effect with less. | A close friend of mine ended up in hospital and was very close to death because of GHB A lot of people seem to think its pretty harmless and even uses it to sleep. I see the small dosages they take, so when your drug tolerance gets higher and you stop for awhile its obviously easy to OD if you start using it again  |
I think it was WAY easier to dose and use than alcohol which i always overdosed on and ended up with total memory loss.
I used it to sleep too (gets you to deep sleep instantly). But i was very careful when dosing it, i mean it's not that difficult, must be a real idiot if he's just eying the dosage. Then there are idiots who for some reason has mixed it with alcohol, which can be (or is) lethal. Obviously i avoided doing that.
I think most of its bad rep is from total idiots who are clueless about the drug or is just eying the dosage, possibly high on other drugs at the same time, or he has a source which is inconsistent, like sometimes it's pure, sometimes it's not, that could be dangerous.
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Posted: Mon, 29th Aug 2022 23:31 Post subject: |
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vurt wrote: | deelix wrote: | vurt wrote: | Only drug i had addiction to was GHB/GBL.. used it daily for a couple of years, sometimes i stopped for a week or so to get a little better effect with less. | A close friend of mine ended up in hospital and was very close to death because of GHB A lot of people seem to think its pretty harmless and even uses it to sleep. I see the small dosages they take, so when your drug tolerance gets higher and you stop for awhile its obviously easy to OD if you start using it again  |
I think it was WAY easier to dose and use than alcohol which i always overdosed on and ended up with total memory loss.
I used it to sleep too (gets you to deep sleep instantly). But i was very careful when dosing it, i mean it's not that difficult, must be a real idiot if he's just eying the dosage. Then there are idiots who for some reason has mixed it with alcohol, which can be (or is) lethal. Obviously i avoided doing that.
I think most of its bad rep is from total idiots who are clueless about the drug or is just eying the dosage, possibly high on other drugs at the same time, or he has a source which is inconsistent, like sometimes it's pure, sometimes it's not, that could be dangerous. | Most of what you are saying iv read on reddit etc.
But as always with illegal drugs, you dont really know what you get. Maybe it was mixed with something stronger? He is VERY impatient and has ADHD. So if he doesnt get an instant effect, he will most likely double up... so not that smart of a guy, no. He used it in party settings and at home... and sadly the workplace I got for him. As most countries there is a zero tolleranse for drug use at work, so he lost it. Again, he is not gonna win price. Maybe the darwin award. He is still a great guy to hang with tho
And I dont get people who easily get shit faced on alcohol like you. I can drink alot of vodka, but I never do shots, and dont drink that fast.
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Posted: Tue, 30th Aug 2022 00:26 Post subject: |
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Can't get stronger than GBL really, i took like 1.5 - 2ml if i recall correctly. GBL was the one i used mostly. Not exactly difficult to try what strength the bottle has and there was never a time where it wasn't on-point. I made sure my source was legit.
Alcohol is deceptive and makes you incredibly dumb, e.g i drink and i don't realize how drunk i am + also being afraid of sobering up so i drink more and too fast not realizing how quickly i drink (because i've gotten stupid from the alcohol).
I've used everything from Weed, LSD, psilocybin, MDMA to GBL, opiates, amphetamines, psychedelic research chems.. Alcohol was by far the worst one for both safety and mood (made me super depressed the days after). So glad i quit it completely, absolute shit drug imo.
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Posted: Tue, 30th Aug 2022 11:51 Post subject: |
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GHB:
Quote: | Summary: Scientists have discovered that regular use of the party drug GHB, and especially unconsciousness following GHB use, is associated with brain changes including negative effects on long-term memory, working memory, IQ, and higher levels of stress and anxiety. |
https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/10/181008104628.htm#:~:text=Summary%3A,levels%20of%20stress%20and%20anxiety.
In other word, GHB is altering/damaging your brain for good. That's really bad. With excessive use of weed it's been proven that the brain isn't damaged since a period of abstinence will clear any lingering effects. The only issue with weed is psychological dependence but there's already underlying psychological issues that are exacerbated and thus weed is more of a catalyst than a main culprit.
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Posted: Tue, 30th Aug 2022 11:59 Post subject: |
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Why can't people just stick to weed on the weekends or for a vacation a few times a year spread apart. I never did any hard drugs, hallucinogenics/Psychedelics pills, powder and all that shit nor do I have any interest in a "hobby" that damaging and expensive that's how lives get ruined real quick.
I have spent a few short years as an alcoholic and it was hell. Every night I'd open a bottle of whisky and wake up not remembering anything and to a mess of dumb shit I did while I was drunk, be it dumb texting people or shitty/embarrassing behavior that burned bridges etc.
When I had enough I just quit cold turkey and never looked back it's been 2 years with no alcohol now and I will never look at alcohol the same again.
If you're gonna drink, do it in moderation and in good company, good mood and a good environment. Never alone and miserable that just digs you deeper.
Good luck to you man there really isn't any reason worth going back to it, get busy with other shit boozing isn't gonna do you any good. Keep up the sobriety.
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Posted: Tue, 30th Aug 2022 12:17 Post subject: |
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@Frant Cannabis (other names: weed, hashish, marijuana) gets linked to mental disorders like anxiety, psychoses and schizophrenia.
As I understood it for psychoses and schizophrenia the subject has genetically inherited the possibility of developing these disorders. Cannabis abuse can increase the chances of developing it.
No Wikipedia quote: https://nida.nih.gov/publications/research-reports/marijuana/there-link-between-marijuana-use-psychiatric-disorders
Edit: Personally I can't handle weed or hashish. I become dizzy, nauseated, or worse: I experience White Rabbit (Jefferson Airplane) . "One pill makes you larger, one pill makes you small" I experienced my arm is growing and then it starts shrinking again, same with my chest. I could however handle cannabis if I was loaded on alcohol, this can really go wrong btw. I respond to drugs and also alcohol a bit different than most people. I tried speed once, it made me fall asleep. Cocaine made more happy, which is normal since it can act as a serotonin reuptake inhibitor.
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"unconsciousness" so people overdosing it to extreme degree, not just sleeping.. might not be a good idea, when it comes to any drug to use it to the degree of unconsciousness, likely not ever healthy!
GHB/GBL gives you instant deep sleep (if you decide to sleep on it) which is the kind of sleep you need for regeneration of anything in the body.. it would certainly be my no.1 choice if i had to chose one drug to use, no doubt. There were so many times i fell asleep on it for 1h and woke up feeling like i had 1 night of good sleep, and i felt fantastic. Everything went better during this period when it came to training too.. had an easy time building muscle mass.
Actually GHB was tested as medicine for the elderly for the reasons of regeneration. Very promising results in that study where those elderly felt much better and many of them even started having sex again, some of them for the first time in 20 years(!). But it's a controversial drug so its hard to get it approved.. same with psychedelics, but its starting to losen up, for example we are doing studies on PTSD and depression with Psilocybin (regenerates braincells, among other things).. 20 years ago it would have been unthinkable in Sweden due to the massive anti-drug propaganda which spreads lies.
Alcohol on the other hand, that's a damaging drug if anything, there are no healing properties like with GHB. Not just the brain but the entire body, you can feel it too by just using it.. it's like the entire body says "bad idea, never do this again" the day after.. if i read studies i read them on NCBI..
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6090228/
"Recent studies have shown that hydroxybutyrate (GHB) is effective for protection against ischemia/brain damage"
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5460586/
"Conclusions Alcohol consumption, even at moderate levels, is associated with adverse brain outcomes including hippocampal atrophy."
Weed, GHB, Psilocybin (most hallucinogens, apart from deliriants) should be legal imo. Alcohol, cigarettes, very questionable, it's poison, no medical value and no one should ever use either of it.
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Posted: Wed, 31st Aug 2022 11:11 Post subject: |
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I know too little about GHB to make any personal judgement. I do love weed, esp. Indica weed with a high CBD percentage which is what makes the body feel heavy, helps you sleep (and the sleep is godly unless you smoke every day which I don't recommend) and dulls pain; I mainly used that at home to help me sleep well and truly realx. I do enjoy Sativa (the one that makes you high) as well when I'm jamming with my band (makes it sooo much more fun).
Unfortunately I can't really get hold of it these days since I don't know anybody who sells it. Years ago I had several contacts that I could call and some of them even picked me up at home and drove to a safe spot and then dropped me off at home again. That's service. Unfortunately there were periods when I could only get generic hash from dubious people that sometimes tried to scam me with crap hash where they'd added some cooking oil or gave me a lot less than I paid for. I never carried a digital scale to check it; it felt a bit too junky for me so I had to trust my eyes and hands. Oh well.
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Posted: Wed, 31st Aug 2022 11:39 Post subject: |
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They do random checks on incoming stuff. If they find weed etc. they send you a letter. If they keep intercepting drugs sent to you they'll go further. At most I'd get some fines but in recent years the laws regarding weed has become more lax as far as how much you can have/carry (50-60 grams for it to count as petty drug offense) but they decide how far they go on a case basis. If it's for sale they'll got hard on you, if it's for personal use and not a lot you'll get a fine at most. They're not really bothering with going after users anyway so it's pretty safe.
I ordered some premium stuff from someone in the Netherlands several times years ago (REALLY premium stuff: White Widow among other strains and it was amazing). The last time I did it the customs caught it and they obviously confiscated it and sent me a letter. Nothing else happened, no police and no registration, no fines, no nothing.
I do believe the customs tend to check mail from certain countries (like the Netherlands) more often since they know many people buy drugs from there (not only weed).
So generally they don't really care that much about weed; they're interested in pills and hard drugs.
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Frant wrote: | I know too little about GHB to make any personal judgement. I do love weed, esp. Indica weed with a high CBD percentage which is what makes the body feel heavy, helps you sleep (and the sleep is godly unless you smoke every day which I don't recommend) and dulls pain; I mainly used that at home to help me sleep well and truly realx. I do enjoy Sativa (the one that makes you high) as well when I'm jamming with my band (makes it sooo much more fun).
Unfortunately I can't really get hold of it these days since I don't know anybody who sells it. Years ago I had several contacts that I could call and some of them even picked me up at home and drove to a safe spot and then dropped me off at home again. That's service. Unfortunately there were periods when I could only get generic hash from dubious people that sometimes tried to scam me with crap hash where they'd added some cooking oil or gave me a lot less than I paid for. I never carried a digital scale to check it; it felt a bit too junky for me so I had to trust my eyes and hands. Oh well. |
I grew kilos of it in my youth, each grow around 300g-800g, great source of income I've never been a big smoker of it, but i've probably tried 50'ish different strains. I always grew different strains, sometimes 6 different for one grow, pure Sativas takes forever so i only grew them a few times, you have to sell them for a much higher price for it to be worth growing.
I liked the blueberry strains, seems to have mood boosting properties. But the best weed i've had was when i just started discovering weed and all had was a source in Holland who sent it via post (lol). I can't remember the name of this strain, but it was his own and it was really dreamy and also really uplifting, great for listening to music. Maybe it was because it was something new too.. I ordered from him 3 times, one time Tullverket called me, asked me if i had been in any other country recently. I said "no", then she said "vi har ett paket här med KANNABISSS"(Finish accent), i replied "well i didn't order any and it's not mine", got a sceptical answer back that it's not legal etc, nothing more happened..
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Yup, Sweden is Schengen. Flying to Amsterdam to buy weed is a bit excessive. I can take the train to Kristiania in Copenhagen and buy anything from ready made blunts, bag of weed, hash, cookies, brownies etc. but I've forgotten about it.
My drummer was there last summer and bought among other things some cookies. HOLY F**K... I ate a piece (~20% of the cookie) and after 2 hours I was so high I couldn't stand up. Edibles are sooo potent. I prefer pure weed in a pipe, bubbler or bong. I'd like to try dabs or similar but I've never heard of it being available here but I didn't have any good sources anyway (mostly kids at the bottom of the ladder who ran for someone else).
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vurt wrote: | I grew kilos of it in my youth, each grow around 300g-800g, great source of income I've never been a big smoker of it, but i've probably tried 50'ish different strains. I always grew different strains, sometimes 6 different for one grow, pure Sativas takes forever so i only grew them a few times, you have to sell them for a much higher price for it to be worth growing.
I liked the blueberry strains, seems to have mood boosting properties. But the best weed i've had was when i just started discovering weed and all had was a source in Holland who sent it via post (lol). I can't remember the name of this strain, but it was his own and it was really dreamy and also really uplifting, great for listening to music. Maybe it was because it was something new too.. I ordered from him 3 times, one time Tullverket called me, asked me if i had been in any other country recently. I said "no", then she said "vi har ett paket här med KANNABISSS"(Finish accent), i replied "well i didn't order any and it's not mine", got a sceptical answer back that it's not legal etc, nothing more happened.. |
Impossible for me to grow for personal use now. The power bill would explode beyond belief now from the wattage use of the lamps and fans. It's a rather heavy investment to grow weed and selling would almost be a necessity to afford growing and that's not something I'm even remotely interested in.
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Yeah, i'm not suggesting it, i just said i've done it.. i would never do it now. Actually the investment now would be perhaps 3000:- for a personal grow, 1000:- for a small grow tent, then 1000:- for a decent LED lamp, seeds maybe 1000:- from some good seedbank. Then yes a little for soil and nutrients, but you can get away cheap. But the price of electricity makes it impossible.
When i was into it you had to buy those expensive HPS lamps, electricity bill went up x4...
Edible weed seems scary. I've heard the high is different and much longer lasting too. Nope, not for me..
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Iconized, great achievement man! Do not relapse! You future will be great. I quit smoking around same day 2 weeks ago and as a heavy chain smoker, I suffer a lot as well. Nothing compared to your battle. Do not relapse man! Its worth the suffering!
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Stick with it man. Nothing good can come from chasing the bottom of the bottle.
Alcoholism is horrible for all involved. You, those around you, those you meet, and your loved ones.
Fought through a couple years of it with my wife. If you have any that you love, or love you around; nothing makes them feel more helpless than not only watching you have that monkey on your back killing you, but also having to cope with you lashing out defending the monkey if they mention its killing you.
And you will hit a point, if you havent already where you drink solely just to forget you are watching yourself slowly spiral into a grave. You will only be drinking to forget how shit you feel because you cannot control your drinking. Self imposed chemical induced depression, to help forget you are self imposing depression
If you relapse I will rally the troops on the forum to gather up and come slap the bottle out of your hands 
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