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 Posted: Tue, 15th Mar 2005 04:26 Post subject: Are you happy? |
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Are you happy?
Do you lead a genuinely happy life?
If you were to die today would you be satisfied with the life you were to leave behind?
If your life sucks then what makes you smile from time to time.
What songs put a smile on your face? What songs can't you stand?
Genres mean nothing. Certain songs must piss you off and certain songs just carry the day for you.
And if your life is great why is it great? What do you that makes it great? I don't care about what happened in your life. I don't care that you fucked a hot model and she bought you a mansion down at some rich area by the beach.
And also what would you do if you were told today that you’d die tomorrow? What would you do throughout the day? How would you go to sleep? How would you make sure you’re being remembered decades after your flesh turned to dust?
Don’t bull shit your way through the post. Be honest. And don't laugh at others. I’m sure everyone’s life a fair tale. But I want to know what makes it a joy a read? 
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears. Wish you were here.
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Life is all good over here. What you have to remember is that people will always want things to be better. Sure you could have more money, a nicer car, a better job, a hotter girlfriend, etc but you should try to be happy with what you have.
So I say I am happy, and I really am, because I appreciate the things that I have and my experiences thus far.
Despite all that, dying now would be a bummer for me also because there are more things that I want to accomplish including raising a family.
If I was told that I was going to die the next day I would get all the money I could together and throw a monster party with everyone I knew. I think it would be the best way to go out.
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I am not happy, real honestly.
I don´t know what to do with my life, what I want to be. I have to choose soon wether to apply for univeristy or work next year. If so, wich univerity, wich education? If work, what can I work with? Cause I don´t find myslef especially good at anything..
What makes me smile? A special girl (problem is she live quite far away from me, but in sweden atleast). Songs, well there are many songs that do that, just cause they´re good, but one example, Groove Armada - Think twice. I find myself open to new ideas quite often these days, that song for example (not like anything i´ve ever listened to). I suggest you listen to it 
If i´d were to die tomorrow, i don´t really know what i would do. Call or meet my best friends, tell them exactly what i think and thought of them etc. Then maybe get to a beautiful place and sit there and think and wait. I wouldn´t go to sleep.
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| Posted: Wed, 16th Mar 2005 00:29 Post subject: |
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I'm a very happy person. I laugh at everything even when I shouldn’t. Makes me look retarded but meh I enjoy life. I'm still a child deep down inside. Growing up I was beaten every time I cried, screamed, did anything emotional. It helped me realize that life is meant to be enjoyed not cried over. So it wasn’t that bad.
And right now my life is as perfect as it can be. The nights are pretty much pitch black. The days are very cold and shiny bright. People around me feel awkward talking to me. Don’t know why  . My appearance is an eye sore so my social life kind of dissipates more and more every sunset and yet it feels great! The less I communicate with my daily group of people (friends) the less lies I face. I’d love to die right now. I’d regret nothing. Though I don’t have any ‘real’ friends. I’d willingly backstab ‘em, those who consider me their friend, if I had the chance.
Sometimes there are those bad days. Sometimes I don’t get to see her face and it just ruins the night for me. So when that happens few songs cheer me up  Slipknot – eyeless, slayer – burn in hell I Put a Spell on You \ (s)aint \ Highway to hell \ antichrist superstar – Marilyn Manson and No Remorse (I Wanna Die) - Slayer feat. Atari Teenage Riot.
Sometimes these songs can’t put a smile back on my face. So I turn to other things. I intentionally hurt/cut my self. I don’t know why but it puts a smile on my face. I love the feeling of sharp steel slowly cutting through the skin. I love how blood feels when it escapes from your body. I love playing with the droplets of blood. Sometimes I use my body as a canvas and just play tic-tac-toe with my alter-ego and sometimes I draw on the bathroom tiles. Once I made a house with a happy boy beside it but couldn’t finish it ‘cause I had to go out for a dinner / movie thing.
If I were to die tomorrow I’d kill my self today. I hate waiting.
_SiN_, I used to be like you not knowing what to do in the future. Teachers said I had a gift/potential/talent in writing which basically meant “Waldo, you’re ‘cool’ and you can’t write for shit but I don’t want to see you retaking my class so what I’m trying to say is that you’re getting a high mark because you’re a good writer  ” so I took the easy way out. I signed up for easy shit in college. Shit I’ve been doing during the long summers for friends. Media / Film production. It was either University level (which sucks) or College based (which I don’t know). I helped a friend at York University edit a movie. Well I did all the work and he got the mark. A really good mark And it pissed me off. The movie blew. I mean seriously. It was something I would rather gouge out my eyes and suck on them than watch.
 hahahaha anywho you should do what want. It doesn’t matter if you’re good or not good at it. If you want to do it then do it. Nothing is stopping you. Well procrastination is  . Who knows maybe someday you’ll perform the first brain transplant on teh space station. Or develop a game that will be remembered decades after you left your rich and famous life. Or maybe you’ll write a Pulitzer winner and become famous then write scripts for movies and become a rich / popular script writer and we’d all envy you
Life is all about making mistakes and then paying for child support. So unless your wallet is drained every month you can do anything and everything your mind could come up with. 
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears. Wish you were here.
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| Posted: Wed, 16th Mar 2005 07:46 Post subject: |
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wow injurious you just changed my thoughts on you. you're a psycho man. we got a kid like this in my class, he's funny (wears the same fuckin clothes every day pretty much) but he's also pretty simple, he's into all that gay "i wanna die" shit too, he doesnt cut himself though.
Neway yea id die happily its not as though id have a choice, but if some1 injected me and said i was gonna die id prolly be scared as fuck and go mental. I'm not ready to die yet
Sin go to Uni, i know it's shit but think you'll be entering a specialist sector which instantly increases your minimum wage
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| Posted: Wed, 16th Mar 2005 14:13 Post subject: |
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What really makes me happy is going out with friends and looking forward to big nights out and stuff. Without my friends and family I don't know what i'd do.
I have a girlfriend but I don't really connect with her, she's really extroverted (getting up on stages in clubs and dancing etc.) whereas I am not, and she loves to be the center of attention. She's really hot, but if a girl came along who I really connected with I wouldn't have second thoughts about dumping her. It's more about convenience then anything.
Sometimes I can get a bit depressed when i'm in my room on my own. It's weird because my friends will ask me to come out, i'll stay in, and then feel down because i'm lonely.
Music, hmmm, well i'm stuck with old stuff at the moment because P2P doesn't work at the uni. But I listen to 'papa roach' alot, 'refused', 'nine inch nails' and 'a perfect circle'. I have a few other songs I listen to from different genres.
If I was told I was going to die tomorrow, i'd probably have a massive party with everyone I know, then I would arrange a skydiving session. I've always wanted to do it but i'm too scared.
"Techniclly speaking, Beta-Manboi didnt inject Burberry_Massi with Benz, he injected him with liquid that had air bubbles in it, which caused benz." - House M.D
"Faith without logic is the same as knowledge without understanding; meaningless"
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| Posted: Thu, 17th Mar 2005 19:54 Post subject: |
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For fuck sake Injurious stop talking shite.
Im a cockfag
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| Posted: Fri, 18th Mar 2005 00:37 Post subject: |
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Happy, whats happy?
If id die today, i wouldnt care less. Can you be scared to die? you dont know it afterwards, you dont care when you are not around.
I only know that my conscience aint that fucked up, i can walk on the street without feeling shitty. I dont regret the way i lived, but at the other side if i could redo some things i would.
Some years ago i used to be quite happy/unhappy depending on what happened around me.
Ive grown up a bit now. hehe, hell my HDD broke down with all my warez on it, my irc, my flashfxp, my everything i ever made on a pc, and it didnt make me angry, pissed or unhappy.
Well maybe i have just become numb lol
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| Posted: Fri, 18th Mar 2005 05:20 Post subject: |
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nah he is a zombie though
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| Posted: Fri, 18th Mar 2005 16:51 Post subject: |
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And please, don´t call Injurious "a psycho man" just cause he does what he want with his body and life...
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| Posted: Wed, 23rd Mar 2005 04:44 Post subject: |
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| _SiN_ wrote: | | And please, don´t call Injurious "a psycho man" just cause he does what he want with his body and life... |
Yeah well self harm isn't exactly the expression of a psychologically healthy person.
"Techniclly speaking, Beta-Manboi didnt inject Burberry_Massi with Benz, he injected him with liquid that had air bubbles in it, which caused benz." - House M.D
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| Posted: Wed, 23rd Mar 2005 11:29 Post subject: |
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| Injurious wrote: | | few songs cheer me up Slipknot – eyeless, slayer – burn in hell I Put a Spell on You \ (s)aint \ Highway to hell \ antichrist superstar – Marilyn Manson and No Remorse (I Wanna Die) - Slayer feat. Atari Teenage Riot. |
Now, how did I know that you listen to angry, pointless, numb, head banging metal. Nice way of dealing with your emotions there, ain' it - bang your head for 20 minutes and all that anger just up and comes out... not.
Musical tastes reflect personality, often in strange, mysterious ways. Depressed people will often listen to angry music, the angst-filled street punks often unwind with Mozart, and the melancholy listen to the likes of Coldplay and Moby.
You mention being a retard in several places, your words reflect an intricate, sick dream you are weaving for us, whatever it is based on, but for some reason someone who cuts himself for pleasure just doesn't reflect the angst-filled teenager your music portrays you as.
Why do you put on this facade? I've even managed to draw you out of it with anger to show much more intelligence than you put behind yourself. At this point, I'm guessing your major is either english or psychology, and that you do this in your spare time (that or you have a lot of classes you pay no attention in).
You can keep up the pretense of a self-damaging retard or you can admit your intelligence and grasp the presense of non-obligatory contacts you can be as open or as closed with as you want, here. The worst consequence is a ban, and in the big picture it's meaningless, a google search will yield thousands of these boards. Crawl out of the shell or look like the idiot dressed in a clown costume at a board meeting. The choice is yours, but you've outgrown the costume.
Oh, and in case you need material for retort, my current Winamp track is Moby - Porcelain.
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Ok, that's enough ignorance and stupidity for now, thank you very much.
| Quote: | | Now, how did I know that you listen to angry, pointless, numb, head banging metal. |
Ok, you don't like the music, fine. Judge everyone that listens to a certain kind of music is just plain ignorance.
Yes, yes I'm back.
Somewhat.
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| Posted: Wed, 23rd Mar 2005 22:50 Post subject: |
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| fisk wrote: | Ok, that's enough ignorance and stupidity for now, thank you very much.
| Quote: | | Now, how did I know that you listen to angry, pointless, numb, head banging metal. |
Ok, you don't like the music, fine. Judge everyone that listens to a certain kind of music is just plain ignorance. |
Never said I did not like the music. Just giving my description of it's average fan, from my experience. My own metal collection includes:
Behemoth - Demigod
Dimmu Borgir - Death Cult Armageddon
Disturbed - The Sickness
Drowning Pool - Desensitized
Hatebreed - 13 var. tracks
Killswitch Engage - The end of heartache
Marilyn Manson - Lest We Forget
Marilyn Manson - Portrait of an American Family
Rammstein - Sehnsucht
Rammstein - Herzeleid
Rammstein - Mutter
Rammstein - Reise, Reise
Rammstein - various tracks
Shinedown - Leave a whisper
Unwritten Law - Here's to the mourning
Sonata Arctica - Ecliptica
Sonata Arctica - Winterheart's Guild
Sonata Arctica - Silence
Considering that I have 16 complete albums of metal (and actually own most of the legit CDs), do you really think that I dislike the genre? I love it, when I am in a certain mood, at certain periods in my life etc. I had nothing against it when I wrote the post. I was not trying to "snipe" anyone. I wasn't trying to offend or insult, just conclude, promote conversation. All of a sudden I am attacked by you for speaking against metal - something that was never my intention. Then again, I suppose you know better than I what I was thinking.
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| Posted: Thu, 24th Mar 2005 01:01 Post subject: |
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\\\ Now, how did I know that you listen to angry, pointless, numb, head banging metal. Nice way of dealing with your emotions there, ain' it - bang your head for 20 minutes and all that anger just up and comes out... not.\\\
Different people deal with their problems differently. I enjoy listening to chaotic music to calm me down. I listen to slipknot and I have a smile on my face. I listen to Frank Sinatra and I get pissed.
\\\ Musical tastes reflect personality, often in strange, mysterious ways. Depressed people will often listen to angry music, the angst-filled street punks often unwind with Mozart, and the melancholy listen to the likes of Coldplay and Moby.\\\
Melancholy and Depressed are essentially the same things…
\\\You mention being a retard in several places, your words reflect an intricate, sick dream you are weaving for us, whatever it is based on, but for some reason someone who cuts himself for pleasure just doesn't reflect the angst-filled teenager your music portrays you as.\\\
Ummm what? "I’m not a book so you can’t read me. I’m not a photo so you can’t analyze me. I’m a new breed of psychos. I’ll come to your house and gouge out your eyes and skull fuck you to death then finger your nose and lick off the snot."
\\\ Why do you put on this facade? I've even managed to draw you out of it with anger to show much more intelligence than you put behind yourself. At this point, I'm guessing your major is either english or psychology, and that you do this in your spare time (that or you have a lot of classes you pay no attention in).\\\
K, for one I’m still in high school; Northview Secondary High School. I failed English twice. I had to retake it to graduate. So taking it in college/university isn’t my cup-o-tea. And psychology? I would be a profile they’d be studying.
\\\ You can keep up the pretense of a self-damaging retard or you can admit your intelligence and grasp the presense of non-obligatory contacts you can be as open or as closed with as you want, here.\\\\
I have been honest with each and everything I have said. I am a retard. At school I am treated as a retard. I have special Ed classes. And well what more do you need?
\\\The worst consequence is a ban, and in the big picture it's meaningless, a google search will yield thousands of these boards. Crawl out of the shell or look like the idiot dressed in a clown costume at a board meeting.\\\
The reason why I prowl these forums is because I enjoy the atmosphere. It’s fun here. Nothing can replace those things online. What more do I need? If I were banned it would mean shit to me. I don’t really care. I understand that mods have to do their job and if I happen to be a casualty I’ll know there was something I’ve done to deserve it. And you can’t fight against that.
\\\The choice is yours, but you've outgrown the costume.\\\
I’ll tell you the truth. I enjoy watching people smile even if it makes me look like a jack ass. I love hearing people scream at me. I love the emotions they portray. It’s poetic. The reason why I act this way is because I’m fascinated by emotions I love seeing people being angry. I love watching them cry. Hearing their conversations. The passion in their voice. That’s why I love life. It’s so full of these little things and everyone just ignores them
\\\ Oh, and in case you need material for retort, my current Winamp track is Moby - Porcelain.\\\
Awww… here’s a cookie  now smile
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now onto your massive metal collection
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that cookie isn't even appetizing. it looks plastic.
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| Injurious wrote: | \\\ Now, how did I know that you listen to angry, pointless, numb, head banging metal. Nice way of dealing with your emotions there, ain' it - bang your head for 20 minutes and all that anger just up and comes out... not.\\\
Different people deal with their problems differently. I enjoy listening to chaotic music to calm me down. I listen to slipknot and I have a smile on my face. I listen to Frank Sinatra and I get pissed.
\\\ Musical tastes reflect personality, often in strange, mysterious ways. Depressed people will often listen to angry music, the angst-filled street punks often unwind with Mozart, and the melancholy listen to the likes of Coldplay and Moby.\\\
Melancholy and Depressed are essentially the same things…
\\\You mention being a retard in several places, your words reflect an intricate, sick dream you are weaving for us, whatever it is based on, but for some reason someone who cuts himself for pleasure just doesn't reflect the angst-filled teenager your music portrays you as.\\\
Ummm what? "I’m not a book so you can’t read me. I’m not a photo so you can’t analyze me. I’m a new breed of psychos. I’ll come to your house and gouge out your eyes and skull fuck you to death then finger your nose and lick off the snot."
\\\ Why do you put on this facade? I've even managed to draw you out of it with anger to show much more intelligence than you put behind yourself. At this point, I'm guessing your major is either english or psychology, and that you do this in your spare time (that or you have a lot of classes you pay no attention in).\\\
K, for one I’m still in high school; Northview Secondary High School. I failed English twice. I had to retake it to graduate. So taking it in college/university isn’t my cup-o-tea. And psychology? I would be a profile they’d be studying.
\\\ You can keep up the pretense of a self-damaging retard or you can admit your intelligence and grasp the presense of non-obligatory contacts you can be as open or as closed with as you want, here.\\\\
I have been honest with each and everything I have said. I am a retard. At school I am treated as a retard. I have special Ed classes. And well what more do you need?
\\\The worst consequence is a ban, and in the big picture it's meaningless, a google search will yield thousands of these boards. Crawl out of the shell or look like the idiot dressed in a clown costume at a board meeting.\\\
The reason why I prowl these forums is because I enjoy the atmosphere. It’s fun here. Nothing can replace those things online. What more do I need? If I were banned it would mean shit to me. I don’t really care. I understand that mods have to do their job and if I happen to be a casualty I’ll know there was something I’ve done to deserve it. And you can’t fight against that.
\\\The choice is yours, but you've outgrown the costume.\\\
I’ll tell you the truth. I enjoy watching people smile even if it makes me look like a jack ass. I love hearing people scream at me. I love the emotions they portray. It’s poetic. The reason why I act this way is because I’m fascinated by emotions I love seeing people being angry. I love watching them cry. Hearing their conversations. The passion in their voice. That’s why I love life. It’s so full of these little things and everyone just ignores them
\\\ Oh, and in case you need material for retort, my current Winamp track is Moby - Porcelain.\\\
Awww… here’s a cookie now smile
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now onto your massive metal collection
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I never said I was an expert. I was just nullifying fisk's point. |
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| Posted: Thu, 24th Mar 2005 04:24 Post subject: |
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things are good, i have a good job, i have a side deal right now which gets me about 35000 a month.. great gal and no problems upcoming..am i happy?? no cause i haven't achieved everything i want... once i buy a mansion with this side deal, then i'll smile.... maybe
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